A star up in the sky; a poem to the dead, let this mistake bring a vivid picture to your eyes.
My pop,
I miss you so much, you were the first loss I ever had to deal with. I should have gone to see you, maybe you would have felt better. Maybe you would still be here with us, maybe Gramie would remember who I am. Maybe I could go sit out back with you one more time and hear your stories and hear you laugh and hug you one more time.
Mary,
Not even a month after I lost my pop, I lost you. We hadnt talked in months but it didnt make it hurt any less. It was so unexpected. And it hurt so much. And it scared me. It taught me a very important lesson which I hold strong to even now. Dont hold grudges, you never know what may happen and how much you will regret it. I miss you, I miss your, I miss seeing you in the halls at Pine Ridge laughing and smiling talking to every one because we all loved you.
Sydni,
I got the call in New York. It made me cry harder then I have ever cried in my life, I didnt even know what to say, I couldnt breathe or think. I didnt talk to your mom and cierra for a long time. I couldnt. Things arent any better, its still hard. You were so smart, and so beautiful and had everything in front of you. I miss you. I miss you a whole lot. I love you then, I love you now, I love you forever.
Corey,
I am so mad at you I can’t even put it into words. You were ALWAYS there for me, you knew you could have called me. I still don’t accept the fact that you are gone. I don’t care how crazy it is, you faked it, your not dead, your faking it, you ran away you didnt want to deal with all the bullshit, but you wouldnt do this to us. You loved us too much to hurt us all like this, and we love you to much to let this happen. Omg, how did we let this happen, you had all of us. Me and Christina and Paige and Carley Brittany and Kathy, and a million others, you could have called any of us. don’t you understand how much we all love you? I miss you so much, please come home and let us know your okay, I love you.
Danielle,
I have never felt this much pain in my heart, I didnt think it existed. And now even though I know that it does I would still take it all from Mom Dad Mandie, Tina and Lorelle and everyone else twice over so they didnt have to feel an ounce of this pain. You should be here, it shouldnt have been you. You were the happiest most beautiful angel to ever walk this earth, God picked the wrong person. I would take your place, if I had that option. I love you so much sissy, I’m so sorry.
